Looking Down

Turns out we can't go it alone. When Ben came home, I begged my trainer to come to our barn a couple times per week to give me lessons. That was going okay, but my confidence is just not there - I feel like every time I get on this horse I'm ruining him with my crappy seat, legs, and hands. And no one is saying this to me but me.

Work got busy, and so rather than try to get to the barn after work, I had my trainer put some rides on him. He seems happier, and he's easier to ride for about 3 days after she rides him.

I'm being hard on myself, I know. But I also know how badly I suck. On a less bouncy horse, my suckage is minimized, and even hidden. But Ben is exposing every weakness I have. And its beginning to hurt again.

I'm not ready to throw in the towel. I can overcome this. I can become a good enough rider for him.

I threw in a week's vacation in there - let my body recover, rest, and soak in some rays. Turns out not riding for a week is worse than torturing my body for a week.
 
Okay, Plan B. Stretch, strengthen. Look the eff Up - seriously, the horse's head is not going to suddenly pop off if you aren't focusing on it.  Lots of self assessment in the saddle at the walk. My left side is crap. My neck, shoulder, torso, hip. I've always known my left hip is way too closed and too far forward - something I've always struggled with. Any attempts at forcing it back has always created tensions in other places.

But now that I've been in my dressage world, I've also noticed that carrying a long whip has also posed some problems. Why can I comfortably carry the whip in my right hand, resting on my knee - but when I carry it on the left I feel like there is no room - something is blocked. So I started raising my hand, widening my hand - anything to make it feel more like the right. Nothing was working. Until I decided to go a bit higher and see if I played with my shoulders....voila. Left shoulder collapsed forward. If I brought it back - dramatically so - my whip carrying hand suddenly feels right...and wouldn't you know my hip also gets better... and my horse much less cranky.

I've also started playing with stirrup lengths. I'm not confident enough in Ben to just let my stirrups go. He's a great guy and hardly ever spooks...but he's 4, he's 16.1, and he's bouncy...I'd have no chance of saving myself should something happen. Nevertheless, my legs could really use some no-stirrups time. So I've been sneaking in bits here and there, and in addition, doing my warm up with much longer stirrups - about 3 holes from where I can ride him with some dignity, which is really 1 hole too short.

This warm up routine has been helping- I think. Lots of walking, focusing on my position. Not having mirrors doesn't help, I'm just going by what makes Ben happier, and intuitively - what hurts, is troublesome. When I sit up, it hurts to breathe comfortably. It causes anxiety. I know I'm on the right track.

Trotting and cantering - well, if we didn't have our work cut out for us at the walk, you know we do in these gaits. And this is where my guilt comes in. My horse had a beautiful topline, he was fit. He was soft, and happy. And he's losing it at a rapid rate, despite riding him 5 days a week. All because I can't get my act together.


It does come together- but in small steps, where he was used to a proficient rider for the entire ride, every ride.

That said, yesterday we had a better than average ride, and it left me with a glimmer of hope. Wednesday is our first lesson in a few weeks. One other day this week trainer will also ride. I will keep stretching and strengthening off the horse. I will try to lift my attitude out of the gutter. Hopefully it'll be enough to keep us on track...to do something.

Hey Ben, How the Heck Are Ya?!

Man, I suck. Last year I said I was going to blog about owning and retraining an off the track standardbred to show they can be wonderful riding horses.

I started off with great intentions, no one can deny that.

And then I got lazy. Then busy. But mostly lazy.

So here we are, months since my last post. I'll bet you are all wondering if I've given up my project. If I were you, I'd think so too.

I am here to set the record straight. I am a crappy blogger. I'm also a crappy rider.

This leads me to the essence of my blog post- a quarter's worth of updates.

This whole time, Ben has been up in training. Yes, 3 wonderful, expensive months of full training. Those three months would have probably taken me at least 3 years to do myself, if I could ever do it on my own.

Money can't buy everything, but in this case it did.

Ladies and gentleman, I introduce to you Ben 2.0:

Holy S***!

Clown-boy in Training

Ben has been in training for 1 week. He's doing so well! All of our hard work over the past year has paid off- the trainer was able to start working under saddle right away, and by day 3, my boy has started looking like 1 million bucks...well in my opinion. His ride does start out very standardbred-y, but the trainer is working on teaching him to loosen his back, and once that happens, he switches from pacey/cart mode into cute rideable dressage horse mode.

This video was taken at the very end of his ride, so he's a bit tired and taking a bit of effort to keep moving along. I have a bunch of other footage, but its all bouncy and choppy because I apparently suck at holding a camera for any length of time.

The plan is to visit him weekly, on Saturdays, and document his progress. I didn't use the camera for still shots because #1 it was a little dark, and someone was a bit spooky as it was - nevermind adding a flash to the mix, and #2 the photos that require a flash come out crappy anyway.

And...so late in coming...but our Halloween pictures have finally arrived! YAY!

Official Announcement

I know, I know...its been too long without a Ben update. Sorry about that.

I have great BIG news to announce on Ben's behalf.

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Ben is going into full training in February!

Why, might you ask?

As you may have seen in previous posts, and even seen in the posted video,  Ben has a heckuva stride on him. His young launch/stop/start movement is very jarring to my body, and 98% of the time, I walk away from our rides in massive pain, and the inability to teach my young horse the finer qualities of being a great riding horse, like trotting nicely. I (mostly) fully believe that with someone to bridge the gap, to teach him how to carry himself and go forward at an even cadence, I will be able to ride him successfully, without shelling out $$$ for hellish massage appointments. Now, there is always a chance (enter reality check) that his movement may always knock my body out of whack. It is out there, like a little rain cloud looming over a distant mountain. But we're not going to worry about that until it comes closer and starts pouring down on us.

And the best part, since I won't be the one riding, I can be armed with my camera to take pictures and video when I get to visit him, which will be 1-2 times a week. So hopefully this blog will get more visually stimulating!

Routine

Thanks to the world of smart phone technology - Ben has been on a regimen. I downloaded an interval timer app that allows me to build workouts and play them - so it takes the guess work out of timing each workout. 

It has been amazing for Ben - his trot has gotten much more rhythmic and balanced, and his muscling and shine is astounding.

The other day I worked a wee bit on having him walk over poles, so he'd have to bend his knees a few times. 

All in all, he's been doing very well. Work is light, but regular, which seems to be really benefiting him.

Updates

Ben - "Always use protekshun"

Lack of updates, I know! Ben has been off of work- the week after his first lesson, he came up quite lame and blew a fairly large abscess, which needed time to heal. Closely following that episode, he then came down with some viral/cold that swept through the barn and got every horse under 5 sick.

He's doing much better now, and this weekend we'll have another lesson *knock on wood*

I do have a bit of a fun post that has been delayed for some time now...hopefully within the week I can post it and ya'll can have a great laugh!

That Makes Two

Well, Ben has been off for almost a week due to a huge abscess that took hold of his left front hoof. On Saturday he came in from turnout practically 3 legged lame, and his pastern, fetlock and bottom half of cannon was completely swollen. The next day it blew out his heel.

He is pretty much back to normal, just keeping the exit wound clean and letting him move around naturally. Friday I will work with him and see if he might be ready for a lesson on Sunday.